As P’Pan confidently presses his passion to paint Jesus, he says “I want this work to be about Him. Jesus. To serve Him in our paintings. Our first painting should be about Him, of Him.” My first thought when he told me this, is that I’ve never really wanted to paint Jesus. Jesus is funny like that. As I started to submit to the idea, I was not looking forward to this. Plus I have never painted people realistically. I laugh again about how I am getting tested and challenged beyond myself.
I have never been trained or went to any art school, yet Jesus keeps doing His thing in my art and I keep to the promise He told me years ago. “I have given you everything you need, I will teach you what no man can.” Now as I am taking a break from painting Him to write this, I look into the face that came out so far and I am speechless, not by how good it is, because right now I think it not very good. I say that not as an insecurity but just because the process of it can and will look different: ugly, beautiful, wonderous, and Him. I look at it and with my imagination, I see Him. I see Him with me. Painting, showing me, teaching me. Thoughts and ideas coming out of no where. Yet what my heart sees most of all is Him.
Lord has put it on both of our hearts, P’Pan and mine, to paint Jesus right before he dies. This perspective is out of a loving, forgiving and sweet, sweet, realization of “it is finished.” When the sun deserted to shine for 3hours, the peak of His glory came. I imagined Jesus looking at all the people as a groom looks at his bride for the first time. A sweet yet broken look of humility and wonder. His thought are “Wow, I get to be with her? Really, Daddy? You picked her for me? Really? She is… beautiful. Completely my counter part. Perfect. Now I get to die for her, the one I love. It is worth it, and in my death there will be her radiant life.”
I post this unfinished piece to give us a chance to see Him, beautifully revealing Himself. I challenge you with your imagination to peek into His face and see what He looked like. PLEASE if it is on your heart, email me or Facebook message me what He reveals. Let it be word/your experience, or even a picture. It might be what He is doing in the painting I get to paint. I want to put it on the back of this painting. This painting will be going up in one of the rooms for people that are looking for rest. When people come to this room, it will be a chance for His bride to see what He wanted her to see the day that He died for her. I would love for you to be a part of it.
This is a life changer for me, so may this be the same for you. More pictures to come.